melodies of autumn

i feel like giving up...on everything...my life...my studies...everything...but i know i can't...i've got so much to live for...siblings who need my guidance and help them come out alive of this hellhole for a home...friends who depend on me to be happy and keep them from falling into an abyss so deep that you might never come out...a future that could possibly be just waiting for me to finish my studying...and...someone...that i love deeply... what am i supposed to do during times like this? this is the first time that i've really started to give up...i mean...i don't want to give up...but my life force is draining away...i have no more energy to keep up this happy facade of mine...i try...but one can only try while one has energy...i have the will and the determination...but the energy is just being drained out of me...i'm the one who needs help now...i'm the one who wants help... watched one of my fave movies of all-time last night, tuck everlasting...e...

wow...it's been so long since i went here huh? well, i've just been so busy that i haven't had the time to write and all that stuff...sorry about that... anyways...it's the spring equinox today...^^ actually, it's today 'til tomorrow...^^ just saying...is all...^^ well, got nothing much to say because i've got exams and my mind's just focused on that...so, i guess i'll see you guys later...^^ >>>alexa

omg...i can't believe it...my draft for my story is lost! how can i finish it? actually...i'm done with it...i just havent typed it...but still! it's kinda like the same thing! i've got to find it! oh well...i hope it hasn't been thrown away... >>>alexa