melodies of autumn

he talked to my parents. and even though he wasn't allowed right now, my mum said that in three years, it'll be okay. and my mum didn't show any hostilities. she seemed okay with the idea, and now he's on my mum's good side. it's a good thing i told him to ask my parents. my mum also said that it'll be okay if we were friends first, so now, i can ask him to come over without having to worry about my parents. yipee! well, he told me that he'll wait for the three years. i was tempted to tell him that if he didn't want to wait, it was okay. he could find somebody else. i mean, i don't anyone to get hurt. well, i mean, it'd be better if i was the one hurt but he beat me to the punch. he said he'd wait a lifetime. three years would just be a blink. ^^ and maia officially broke up with nico. well, that it what philip tells me. i don't know what to say. i find it annoying because she loves him but shes giving up. i know she should be ...

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem and people are always bringing you down for being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel like youre too mature for your age and are frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to accept you because you're not like them. Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature, modesty. Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority complex, timidity. What kind of girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla Seer The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla >>>alexa

don't you think it's been quite a while since i wrote here? well, anyways, i'm writing here again. for everyone to be updated on my life. well, last saturday, i went to chloe's house to make halloween party decorations. it was fun. duncan was there and the three of us "bonded". no seriously. we did. ^^ it was fun. i looked for spooky sound effects and chloe and duncan made cut outs of pumpkins and bats to hang on the ceiling. chloe and alex just broke up. on a pop monthsary. wow. i'm starting to think that pop is getting to be jinxed. just one more month and pop will be a year old. but it doesn't matter since everythings wrong anyways. paula's still her..."bitchy" self...sorry for the term, but yeah. she only lasted for like...half a year i think. and her friends in school right now. damn. she needs lessons in making friends. i remember that line in harry potter. that one where draco introduces himself and says that he can hel...

wow...it's actually my sembreak. great. now i'm bored. guess what. my mom now put a limit to my internet/computer usage. damn. i haven't done anything wrong. what's up with that? i'm so bored. i've got no inspiration. i can't write a single damn decent thing. dammit. i wish i could write something new. but as is the point of what i'm saying. I CAN'T WRITE ANYTHING! see? i don't even know what to write here....hmmmm.....think lexy, think....*sigh* oryt...i'm just going now....got a new diary by the way...it's for the writers' block....click the link: natsumyre ....yah....well, going now. >>>alexa

ei! i got this from kuya reden's blog and i found it, not really funny, but amusing. ^^ i'm sorry for those who can't understand tagalog but this is in tagalog. but for those who can, enjoy. ^^ ---0---0---0---0---0---0--- Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin. Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw. Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason. Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang. Leche, ano ba talaga?! May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people." Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon. Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang. Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din ni...

i hate ants. i hate things. i hate myself. i'm an idiot. i'm losing all will to write. what is up with me? what is wrong with me? what the hell have i been doing? why did i live? >>>alexa

Our hearts are full of cosmic laws. Learn just a few, get good at those, there's nothing can stand between you and the person you want to be. Slow down and everything you're chasing will come around and catch you. We really love only once or twice in our lives. Treasure that love. There's an underlying purpose for everything that's happening. There's a good reason why you're hurting. There's a reason you chose what's happening around you. Hang on, live your way through it the best you know, and in a bit you'll find out why. Happiness is the reward we get for living to the highest right we know. Live enough of what you've always dreamed of doing and there's no room left for feeling bad. Life only requires us to live with the consequences of our choices. Dream like you'll live forever. Live like you'll die tomorrow. >>>alexa

Hope in Loss 1. I don't know what to do I don't know how to cope I want to tell you I love you But I've lost all hope You see I never saw this coming I never thought I'd fall for you If I knew I'd get hurt from loving Then I'd rather not have known you Chorus: But I guess it's better like this I never had you anyways You never really quite saw me No matter how much I tried I'm thanking you right now I've always feared in love Now I know that'll never be I found hope in loss 2. You're gone and I can't do a thing I want you to stay beside me But I don't have the right That would be asking too much I'm happy I have your friendship I'm glad I have a place in your heart But my heart screams for more And I can't really stop this feeling Bridge: I want to thank you for everything For your friendship and for the pain You helped me overcome this I ...

a weak person maybe someone who is too emotional. someone who cries at the littlest things. one who can't defend herself and is almost always getting used. a weak person is too sensitive of the people around her. someone who is too soft-hearted. but some may say that a weak person is someone who can't make decisions for themselves. someone who is always getting teased because they could not tell the others of who they really are. someone who always keeps their feelings to themselves. for me, someone weak is someone who lets things get to her. a little tease here and the person will fall down. something embarrassing happens and everyone laughs and they go running crying. someone who can't accept jokes about them. people think i am weak. they order me around thinking that they can always count on me to do things for them and when i fail they say that it's all my fault. they think that i don't have feeling because i always wear a mask of happiness. they think ...