i don't know

i don't know what to do. why does everything have to be so complicated. i 'm so tired.

am i selfish? did i do anything to deserve this? if only i could cry my heart out, but i can't. i just want to die so that i couldn't feel any of the pain.

"...if only you could hear my heart's plea
then maybe you could make this easier for me"

that sounds so selfish...

maybe, i should just shut up and start to act emotionless. maybe i'll learn to not feel and then i wouldn't feel any pain at all. i wouldn't be able to experience hurt. i wouldn't feel the need to cry.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-daal-

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