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wow. i wish i wrote the lyrics of this song. damn. it hits right on the spot. well, i don't know if i can really relate. but yeah. there's something about it that hits the spot. well, here it is. stop falling by pink. ---0---0---0---0---0---0--- [Chorus:] I ain't lookin for a steady thing I ain't lookin for what love brings I'm still young and I ain't ready babe I'm still lookin for some better days I don't wanna give you everything I just wanna make you feel things If you ain't down to give me everything Just throw it away Don't assume cuz I'm a woman That I'll fall in love Don't expect I'm young and need to be took care of Don't wanna hear you got what I need Cuz how would you know before we speak You've gotta understand my side I've had a crazy, crazy life Nobody came along to open up my eyes You've gotta take what you can get Don't even bother with my heart Cuz I get a feeling I w

here's the lyrics to separate lives by phil collins. i suddenly took a liking to it because i listened to the version of jimmy bondoc and nina of this song. it's really nice. can't exactly relate but i like it. ---0---0---0---0---0---0--- You called me from the room in your hotel All full of romance for someone that you met And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon And that you miss me sometimes when you're alone in your room Do I feel lonely too? You have no right to ask me how I feel You have no right to speak to me so kind We can't go on just holding on to time Now that we're living separate lives Well I held on to let you go And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show There was no way to compromise So now we're living (living) Separate lives Ooh, it's so typical, love leads to isolation So you build that wall (build that wall) Yes, you build that wall (build that wall) And you make it stronge

this is the lyrics to pink's family portrait. i love the song. well, right now, i feel like i can relate to it. not that i'm going to talk anyways so i'm just gonna settle with this for now. ---0---0---0---0---0---0--- Mama please stop cryin' I can't stand the sound Your pain is painful and it's Tearing me down I hear glasses breaking As I sit up in my bed I told God you didn't mean Those nasty things you said You fight about money About me and my brother And this I come home to This is my shelter It ain't easy, growin' up in WW3 Never knowin' what love could be You'll see, I don't want love to destroy me Like it has done my family Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I'll be better Mommy I'll do anything Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I'll be better Daddy please don't leave Daddy please stop yelling I can't stand the sound Make mama stop cryin'

The Path Here I am again, Striding on this path of pain. Why do I never learn Considering the many times I've tripped and been wounded? I continue to wander aimlessly On this road most people tread, Instead of staying in the wild Where the sprites, my guardians Can keep protecting me. But I keep wondering What's beyond the forests? Why do people stay there When they just get hurt? So I amble back On that rough road, Only to trip once again. And with each fall, The will to stay on the trail Grows stronger, harder. The many cuts and bruises Can't stop me from going back. My curiosity gets The best of me. I drift on the thoroughfare, Sometimes walking, Most of the time running. I know this isn't right. But I can't control it. My feet won't go back. I go on running, Faster with each second. The wind on my face Cools my rushing blood. I want to stop and go back But I can't do it. The chase has enchanted me, Even though I d

yesterday was pop's 10th monthsary. it's so...unbelievable. i never thought we would've reached that far but yes. it's been 10 months. even though there is still that problem, i believe everything will turn out fine. but she's hopeless. but, as long as she's happy. she never needed to find herself. she just needed to find her inner core. but. she still doesn't understand that. nothing will happen if she keeps denying there is a problem. because there is a problem. i can't stand acting like i'm not mad. i can't always pretend. the more i pretend, the more i'll hurt her. it's better this way. this may be just my alibi for ignoring her. but i belive that as soon as she realizes and accepts that there is something wrong, not only with her, but with all of us, then, maybe, the problem will be solved. chloe and i have accepted our faults. it's time she accepted hers. we're taking responsibility. it's time she learned to do

i found this while i was searching for my past notes in our argumentation and debate class. well, it was supposed to be a poem but it ended up a prayer. oh well. i can imagine a world full of peace, a world where everyone is full of love, people overflowing with care and understanding, but that world is just a dream for now. as a child i couldn't imagine this world, a world where chaos reigns, where hate and anger persevere, and wars are an everyday thing. i don't want to live in this world, in a world where there is no love. i'd gladly exchange my life, if it would bring everlasting peace. oh Lord please help our society, enlighten the people here, to stop helping chaos rule, and start working for a just world. that...was...weird. but nice. now i remember why i wrote that. ah...the old feelings come back. people are such hypocrites. i'm one of them. >>>alexa<<<

Lay your sleeping head, my love lay your sleeping head, my love, human on my faithless arm; time and fevers burn away individual beauty from thoughtful children, and the grave proves the child ephemeral: but in my arms till break of day let the living creature lie, mortal, guilty, but to me the entirely beautiful. soul and body have no bounds: to lovers as they lie upon her tolerant enchanted slope in their ordinary swoon, grave the vision Venus sends of supernatural sympathy, universal love and hope; while an abstract insight wakes among the glaciers and the rocks the hermit's sensual ecstacy. certainty, fidelity on the stroke of midnight pass like vibrations of a bell, and fashionable madmen raise their pedantic boring cry: every farthing of the cost, all the dreaded cards foretell, shall be paid, but from this night, not a whisper, not a thought, not a kiss nor look be lost. beauty, midnight, vision dies: let the winds of dawn that

ei chloe! so, mustah? hay...retreat nyo na...miss ko na mag-retreat. kasi naman, ala ever na retreat sa school. yan nga naman ang mapapala mo sa pagpasok sa ndi catholic school. anyways... hm...i don't do the good and bad traits. that's not my style. i guess, i can only offer sound advise. actually, i'm not in the mood to offer sound advise. oh well....^^ one advise though, don't think of the paula problem but...pray for the situation. ^^ pray that this will all be over. pray that everything in your life will fall back into place. pray for your happiness. ^^ well, i hope that everything goes well during your retreat. i pray that you be closer to god after this. so, good luck, take care, and god bless. love you! >>>alexa<<< "there's an underlying purpose to everything that's happening. there's a good reason why you're hurting." "be in charge of your life and fate will cease going against you and start

i need your help. i think...no wait, i'm sure that my parents are going to get an annulment. they said curiousity killed the cat and i think i know now. the realizations the cat had killed him. and i think i'm going to die now. what am i going to do? i feel like everything i believe in is leaving me. i feel like my whole life is falling apart. i don't know what to do. i never imagined this happening. call me naive. call me ignorant. but i always believed that love will find a way. i always believed that the family is the most powerful group that one can have. yes they have their little quabbles now and then but i never thought...it never occured to me...i don't know anymore. all my philosophies are getting shot down one by one. each and every belief that i have is falling down and hitting the ground so hard but no sound comes from it. i don't know why i'm telling you this but i needed someone to tell. it hurts. it really does. i want to cry

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our new philo teacher is really cool. damn him. i have never seen a teacher who acts like him. well, i think i can say that one factor of that is because i've been studying in a exclusive catholic private school. yeah. but damn. he's...undescribable. one of his motto's is "i fuck therefore i am". that's his interpretation of plato's (?) own, "i think therefore i am". here's another motto, "live if you can, die if you must." and another one, "life is a big romantic necessity." and of course, the last one that i have here, "i am the biker of my bike. i am the master of my kite." we have the coolest discussions. his discussions mostly point to one conclusion. that the " i " is beautiful. that it is powerful. that we are gods. everything is by the mind. by the i. everything is by choice. truth, love, death. everything. even the absurdity of life can not stop the power of the " i ". our d

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why is it that even though i keep saying that there is no such thing as "falling in love" that i find myself saying it more often? yes. people don't fall in love. because if people can fall in love, then what can stop them from falling out of love? but even though this is the case, i find myself saying that "i think i'm falling" when there is no such thing. damn it. not only is that annoying but i can't even figure out how i feel about him. yes. i'm using the phrase. i think i'm falling. deeper into the pit. and i don't think there's a way to get out. i. don't. want. to. fall. i. don't. have. anything. to. admit. (yeah right. keep saying that to yourself and you might just believe it.) sounds more like i'm denying it, aren't i? i'm not falling. but yeah. i'm not. sometimes, i find myself blurting out "i love you" when i'm txting him. but i don't know where that came from. maybe s

*sigh* it's another wednesday. another day of boredom. but...things are looking up! he's coming over. he's going to tutor me in math today. it's because i need to get at least a 65 in the next departmental exam in math to get a 3.0 in the card. damn. oh. did i mention that the exam is gonna be tomorrow? yeah. well. it is. that's the reason why i'm happy he's going to tutor me. i really need to get a high score. i'm having a hard time and it's just trigo. damn it. oh peeps, go visit sam's blog. chronicles of a cynic is a cute place. well, for me it is. ^^ it's so green. and there are lilo and stich pictures. and a picture of dory. it's so fun. ^^ okie. that's it. i'm gonna go now. i've still got lots to study. well, at least before he comes over. later! >>>alexa<<<

our new philo teacher is so cool. he's great. he likes countering all our arguments for he says he wants us to learn critical thinking. oh well. he's cool. even though he counters all my arguments too. hehe... anyways, he wrote a poem. not only is he cool but talented. a literary (and philosophical) genius. here's the poem: i shall die not knowing abstract layug i shall die not knowing wht my life is for to what purpose my existence and my death serve. i shall die not knowing why i have to stay in this world what my love, my happiness, my pain, my suffering mean. i shall die not knowing what i have lived why i have cried, why i have suffered, why i have laughed, why i have smiled. i shall die not knowing what to expect from the gentle grave to which myself shall be one, to which myself shall decay. i shall die not knowing what death is what tomorrow may bring to the fading light, to the dying night. i shall die not knowing what to know and

gods. now i have seen it all. my former classmate, just made a review of the song "spaghetti" by the "sexbomb dancers". and you know what? she makes total perfect sense. it's in tagalog but my classmate did us all the pleasure of translating it. filipinos? be amazed. i'm pasting the whole thing that she emailed us and i hope you find it interesting. it's worth a read. ---0---0---0---0---0---0--- I can die now. My life is complete. I have heard the latest sexbomb girls album in its entirety and now I have heard everything. My deepest thanks to my mom for choosing to live in a neighbourhood where the people are so 'giving' they will allow you to hear their cd collections for free,at 6 in the morning! every single ****ing day! Oh you dont understand it do you? To wake up every single day to the sound of girls who are better off cheerleading than singing; to hear songs about pasta going up and down and sideways and what the hell does it all me

hi. i'm trying to do my philo essays right now. it's so damn hard. know why? well, we have to write about, "my life", "my death", "my happiness", and "my world". i thought it might be easy but now i'm here in front of my computer, fingers all ready to type but nothing's coming out. how the hell am i going to write this? you can check out my site now. it's link is there by the side. just click on it. ^^ hope you like it. it was kinda hard to do. think i can start doing my own layouts now? hehe...^^ *sigh* ok. i'm going to go now. i have to finish these four essays by tuesday. and i still haven't even started one. later peeps! god bless! >>>alexa<<<

damn her. damn. her. who does she think she is? after making us look like idiots trying to get near her, she now wants us to accept her easily. damn her. chloe's mom talked to me. she said that she was talking to paula's mom. she told me that paula didn't want to be with us. well, nobody asked her to be with us. and paula's mom makes it look like we're in the wrong. that we're the idiots. chloe asked paula if she wanted to go to david's family day at school. it was just for fun. paula's mom makes it look like we're begging her to let paula go. they're making it look like we're imposing ourselves on paula. i could actually care less if she doesn't want to be with us anymore. if she needs me, i'm here. but i'm not letting her in that easily. she made chloe and i crawl on the ground trying to get near her. i expect her to at least be on her knees. chloe and i will not look like complete idiots while she gets away with her

enjoying a succesful career, having fun at parties and concerts, self sufficient and independent, you're okay with or without a man, you're content just happuly living with someone - your beloved dog! What will you be like 10 to 15 years from now? (girls) brought to you by Quizilla My inner child is ten years old! The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost in a good book, or giggling with my best friend, I live in a world apart, one full of adventure and wonder and other stuff adults don't understand. How Old is Your Inner Child? brought to you by Quizilla You are a weird dream What kind of dream are you? brought to you by Quizilla Cute Flirt What Kind of FLIRT are you? brought to you by Quizilla test yourself at fontlover.com! >>>alexa<<<

hi! we had our com sci exam today. it was...easy. yes. too damn easy. but i guess for the others, it was a bit hard. but yeah. for me. it was a piece of cake. hell. it was just a crumb of the cake. and you wouldn't believe it. when i finished five minutes after the start of the test in the lab, the proctor (which was the teacher of the other class) didn't believe that i had finished so fast. too hell with her. she's not worth arguing to. i'm so used with the computer that what they gave was nothing compared to what i'm doing these days. we didn't have philo class today. he wasn't available during our philo time. but yeah. i was able to read what he told us to us to read. it was long. it was confusing. but i was able to get through it. oh well. i dreamt about him last night. i was reading the philo articles and he came by and we talked. apparently, he dreamt about me also. he dreamt that i was at his grad and i gave him his medal. how the hell did th

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eya! guess what. we have our com sci exam tomorrow. damn. i have no practice. oh well. at least i have a reason to use the computer later. oh yeah! this is gonna be fun. but i guess it's also alright. i mean, the coverage is just html. nothing much. ^^ he went by yesterday. as if you didn't know. but yeah. it was fun. he taught me how to prove tangent identities. and i understood it. he also explained how the others derived the equations. you know, the ones in my notes that i couldn't understand. those. and he's going to come by next wednesday to tutor me again. hopefully, i get high marks in our next math exam. i mean, i need a 65 in the next exam to get a 3 in the card. hm...i really need to get a high grade. i won't settle for a 3. i can't settle for a 3. at least 2.5 or 2 if possible. i finished reading up to chapter 11 of the history book yesterday. i'm going to start reading the others after writing this entry. i hope i finish by our histor

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today's the day he's coming over. i'm excited. damn. i'm excited. anyways, i'm cramming here. it's really annoying. and to think that our exams in math aren't until next thursday and i'm already cramming. ok. i'm not cramming. just studying real hard. and i have to read 5 chapters of our philippine history book. damn. i hate history. i could easily read 5 chapters if it was a different book (like harry potter) but no. it has to be history. we had a new philo teacher yesterday (at last). he was cool. he liked saying "fuck you". he said that it was for us to be able to say everything we wanted to say. no idea what that would do but yeah. he's cool. he also gave us optional reading assignments. the books? tuesday's with morrie, siddharta, and the alchemist. damn. those are cool books. i think he's gonna be a fun teacher. he also gave us an assignment where we have to make a one page essays on four things. my life, my death, m

eya! guess what. he's coming over tomorrow. he's gonna give me his reply to the card-letter i gave him. ^^ he also said that chloe txtd him. so, they were talking a while ago. i wonder what they talked about... well. that's all really. i don't have anymore things to say so i'm gonna go now. later! >>>alexa<<<

hello... this day has been pretty uneventful. really. nothing much has been happening. just a few quirks here and there. but that's it. one good thing today? beryl was online. it was fun talking to her. she said that if i had a guy, she'd blow her top. don't know why though. but i don't have a guy. technically. ^^ well, i guess that's it. oh yeah. he said something to me. because he wanted to. "i love you. i love you, okay? i love you so much. and even if you can't love me, i will still love you. i promise." hm...now what? ok. it's for sure. this is it. later! >>>alexa<<<

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here i am again... yes. i posted quizzes before this so if you'd like to look, then do so. well. remember how i said that we had our exams last tuesday? well, it was postponed. for the fact that there was a storm and classes were suspended. i'm happy but yeah...it's so scary. our exams were rescheduled for tomorrow. so, we're gonna have our math 17 exams tomorrow and i'm cramming. i don't normally cram. hell. i don't normally study for exams. but what am i doing? im studying. i wonder what's possessing me to do this? hmm...our comm exams are postponed for at least two weeks. our comm teacher will be going to africa tonight for a meeting of some sort. she's a cool person but not exactly my fave teacher. oh well. i'm gonna miss her but i'm happy our comm exams postponed. ^^ okie. that's it. i'm going now. until again. i still have to study for our math exam. later! >>>alexa<<<

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hello. i just want to ask a question. what are you supposed to think when you see a print out of the complete rules of the supreme court on legal separation in your parents' bedroom? are you supposed to assume the worst or just think that there must be other reasons for why those are there? should you let it go as nothing or start fearing for the worst? i don't want to think of that scenario but what the hell are you supposed to think when none of your parents are lawyers? that's it. later days. >>>alexa<<<

i'm back. actually, i just wanted to post something that he told me. "ikaw. you enchant me. you fill my days with excitement. from you i learn a lot. and most of all you make me realize what love really is. i love you." damn. i don't know if i want to hate him or love him for that. and he sent me something that was supposed to be sent to his dad. "...and the weird thing is the more i love her, the more i learn to wait, to let the love grow." damn. damn. damn. gods. what am i supposed to do? i'm so confused. (tell me something new...) *sigh* i'm going now. still have to go to school. later people! >>>alexa<<<

heya! i'm so tired. our exams are piling up. i've got our 3rd math 17 departmental exams tomorrow and i'm still confused about logarithms. damn. i hope i pass our exams tomorrow. i don't think i'll be able to. i have to do my best tomorrow or else i might fail our math 17 class. damn. damn. damn. i don't want to fail. and not only that. we've got this recitation exam tomorrow in our comm class. and what is the coverage about? basic sentence structures and the basic parts. damn. and almost all of us are failing it. damn. i can't believe there came a day when im scared of failing an english class. damn again. i don't even know why we have to study it. i mean, we know when we have correct grammar or not. *sigh* oh well... well, that's it for today. i'll post again tomorrow. yah. tomorrow. see ya! >>>alexa<<<