selfish

i'm gonna be honest...for once, i wanna be honest...



"...and i never really got my heart back..." - reese witherspoon "sweet home alabama"

"love never really dies" - anonymous




don't you think it's unfair that the person you love shares your heart with all your past loves? don't you think it's unfair that the one who you say you really love only has a small portion of your heart and her only consolation is that she has the knowledge that you love her back, for now?

if you ask anyone, i think they'd think that it's really unfair to the one you love. she can never be sure if you love her enough to stay faithful to her. it's not completely comforting to know that you share the heart of the one you love with someone else, let alone more than one person. it hurts to know that you never really have the person's heart. all you'll ever have is a small portion of the person's heart, and at anytime that that person gets tired of you, no matter how much that person said that he/she loves you, the person can leave you. and all you'll be is broken hearted, torn apart, and lonely. no one to make you smile, no one to dry your tears, no one there at all.

as much as i don't want to feel jealous, i am. because as much as i try not to feel hurt knowing that i share your heart with so many others, i am. even though i tell you otherwise, what i say is a lie, because i am jealous. i am hurt. i am upset. because i can't understand why i can you my whole heart (well, half of it because half belongs to God, my family and my friends) and all you can give me in return doesn't even measure up to half of what i gave.

i don't care what i said first. all that was a lie. i do mind. as much as God doesn't want to share our hearts with so many other gods (ie. money, career, pride, etc.), i don't want to share your heart with so many others. i don't care if i'm being selfish and it's against my principles to be selfish. i want the whole thing. i don't want to share (except with God , your family nd your friends) your heart with other girls. i want to be assured that you'll never leave me. i want to know that i'm the only one. because i can never be the only one if i'm sharing your heart eith others. i want to be the only one. condemn me if you wish, but i don't care. i'm selfish. if only with you.



you can call me selfish
when all i want is your love
you can call me hopeless baby
because i'm hopelessy in love
you can call me unperfect
but who's perfect
tell me what do i got to do
to prove that i'm the only one for you
so what's wrong with being selfish
- n 'sync "selfish"




>>>alexa<<<

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