after some time
don't you think it's been quite a while since i wrote here?
well, anyways, i'm writing here again. for everyone to be updated on my life.
well, last saturday, i went to chloe's house to make halloween party decorations. it was fun. duncan was there and the three of us "bonded". no seriously. we did. ^^ it was fun. i looked for spooky sound effects and chloe and duncan made cut outs of pumpkins and bats to hang on the ceiling.
chloe and alex just broke up. on a pop monthsary. wow. i'm starting to think that pop is getting to be jinxed. just one more month and pop will be a year old. but it doesn't matter since everythings wrong anyways. paula's still her..."bitchy" self...sorry for the term, but yeah. she only lasted for like...half a year i think.
and her friends in school right now. damn. she needs lessons in making friends. i remember that line in harry potter. that one where draco introduces himself and says that he can help harry choose the right friends. and paula is the harry that actually goes with him. oh well. i just found out from chloe that she actually failed two subjects. man. i didn't think that was possible. i liked her old friends better. at least they pushed her to study. these new friends of hers don't care. all they want to do is have fun, not thinking of the consequences of what they're doing.
and she dares calls herself an active youth for christ member. she doesn't even obey her parents. and her pride's too big. her priorities are out of order. and she's out of it. if i were her, i wouldn't even have the face to show or the guts to call myself an active yfc member.
hm...skipping that subject now...what else is there?
oh right! we went to zambales last sunday. it was....boring....very boring. the place we stayed in had no signal. we were bored as hell. there was nothing to do. tv shows sucked. everything sucked. i couldn't txt for crying out loud....*sigh*
anyways....i don't know if i did something right. i was talking to him yesterday. 2 hours on the phone in the morning. 3 hours chatting in the evening. an hour more on the phone after chatting. and txting until 2 in the morning today. and i said it. well, first i admitted it. that i do love him. i actually admitted it when we were in zambales. had nothing to do so...yeah. i had time to reflect. and i admitted it. i love him.
and last night, while we were txting each other, i told him. that i admitted it. but i didn't say that i love him. i just said that i admitted it. i just didn't want to say those three words yet. i don't know. if i say it this early, then he might not give his all when he's courting me. i don't know. but we talked about that. and he is going to formally court me. to show his worth to be my boyfriend.
because i have this one overly idealistic dream. that the one boyfriend i have will be the one i'll marry. i'll only have one real boyfriend and i don't want another one if it doesn't work out. maybe i just wasn't meant to marry if it doesn't work out the first time. but of course, that can change with time. but i want to follow that dream...i don't want that to be shattered.
and yeah. i told him. and he's going to talk to my parents this thursday. he said he wanted this to work. because he wanted me to be the one he'll marry. and i'm glad he feels that way. because if ever we'll be together, he'll have to work very hard. i only hope and pray that he doesn't give up. i have a feeling that this is going to be a rough road from here on. this is not going to be easy. maia was right. this is not going to be easy.
so....yeah. i have to go now. later peeps. good luck, take care, and god bless. an advanced happy halloween to all of you. ^^
>>>alexa<<<
well, anyways, i'm writing here again. for everyone to be updated on my life.
well, last saturday, i went to chloe's house to make halloween party decorations. it was fun. duncan was there and the three of us "bonded". no seriously. we did. ^^ it was fun. i looked for spooky sound effects and chloe and duncan made cut outs of pumpkins and bats to hang on the ceiling.
chloe and alex just broke up. on a pop monthsary. wow. i'm starting to think that pop is getting to be jinxed. just one more month and pop will be a year old. but it doesn't matter since everythings wrong anyways. paula's still her..."bitchy" self...sorry for the term, but yeah. she only lasted for like...half a year i think.
and her friends in school right now. damn. she needs lessons in making friends. i remember that line in harry potter. that one where draco introduces himself and says that he can help harry choose the right friends. and paula is the harry that actually goes with him. oh well. i just found out from chloe that she actually failed two subjects. man. i didn't think that was possible. i liked her old friends better. at least they pushed her to study. these new friends of hers don't care. all they want to do is have fun, not thinking of the consequences of what they're doing.
and she dares calls herself an active youth for christ member. she doesn't even obey her parents. and her pride's too big. her priorities are out of order. and she's out of it. if i were her, i wouldn't even have the face to show or the guts to call myself an active yfc member.
hm...skipping that subject now...what else is there?
oh right! we went to zambales last sunday. it was....boring....very boring. the place we stayed in had no signal. we were bored as hell. there was nothing to do. tv shows sucked. everything sucked. i couldn't txt for crying out loud....*sigh*
anyways....i don't know if i did something right. i was talking to him yesterday. 2 hours on the phone in the morning. 3 hours chatting in the evening. an hour more on the phone after chatting. and txting until 2 in the morning today. and i said it. well, first i admitted it. that i do love him. i actually admitted it when we were in zambales. had nothing to do so...yeah. i had time to reflect. and i admitted it. i love him.
and last night, while we were txting each other, i told him. that i admitted it. but i didn't say that i love him. i just said that i admitted it. i just didn't want to say those three words yet. i don't know. if i say it this early, then he might not give his all when he's courting me. i don't know. but we talked about that. and he is going to formally court me. to show his worth to be my boyfriend.
because i have this one overly idealistic dream. that the one boyfriend i have will be the one i'll marry. i'll only have one real boyfriend and i don't want another one if it doesn't work out. maybe i just wasn't meant to marry if it doesn't work out the first time. but of course, that can change with time. but i want to follow that dream...i don't want that to be shattered.
and yeah. i told him. and he's going to talk to my parents this thursday. he said he wanted this to work. because he wanted me to be the one he'll marry. and i'm glad he feels that way. because if ever we'll be together, he'll have to work very hard. i only hope and pray that he doesn't give up. i have a feeling that this is going to be a rough road from here on. this is not going to be easy. maia was right. this is not going to be easy.
so....yeah. i have to go now. later peeps. good luck, take care, and god bless. an advanced happy halloween to all of you. ^^
>>>alexa<<<
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